So I never thought I would be writing this blog but all day Iv wondered weather or not to be honest with the world, as it is on my mind I am going to share and I’m not sure my partner doesn’t read.
So today is the 18th of May, on the 19th of May 2 years ago I adventured on the scary thought of a blind date, how ever the twist was this date turned out to be the most incredible woman I had ever meet. I instantly feel in love with her.
Two years on a we have rode a rollercoaster, but some of best moments of my life. We had only been back together a couple of month but this time I believed it was true believed it was real.
So tomorrow was planned to be our 2 years celebration, it was planned to be in our favourite hotel in one of our favourite city’s a city that had been a major part of our life’s for the right and wrong reasons.
How ever this was going to be different, I had planned in my head that during this week I would be visiting her father and asking for his acceptance to marry his daughter, it was gonna be crazy but it was my way to show her an the world we was serious.
I had borrowed some money and was prepared. I had emailed the hotel to see if I could possible set it up so that one the evening a different bedroom to ours would be pitch black and lit up with tea light candles in the shape of a heart I had written a poem….
19th of May is a very special day,
Which why I have whisked you away.
We been through much some not great,
Even our first day I turned up late.
There was and is something about you
When with out you, I don’t no what to do.
You make me smile and make me happy,
I don’t even care if your mad and snappy.
We laugh so much and have great fun
I’m the moon and your my sun.
We seem to just fit and meant to be
I want life to be with you and some sea
When we hold hands it just seems to fit
Il even hold ya hand after ya had a s**t
I hope that made you smile
Time to hold that for a while.
Because about to hurt my knee
And I probably need a wee
But if you look at me right now
I hope you will remember this day
As there something I really wanna say
It’s kinda crazy but feels so right to do,
Aimee my princess, I want to marry you
Yeah it was crazy but I knew I wanted to be with her for the rest of my life.
This weekend should have been so different. I don’t no why I want to share it but maybe if I say it on paper it will exit my thoughts.
This is such a hugh mess, today I have been trying to sort a solicitor out for court which is just nuts.
But for all this mess I actually love her to absolute peaces, no one can control who they fall in love with. I just wish maybe we had seeked some help to help us succeed.
I still wanna marry her, but I have faced reality that this time I really let her down.
Today is a sad day. Tomorrow will be tough.