I don’t hold on to the past or try to make life change from what it is today. I physically can’t change anything and my life can’t be on pause living in what ifs or maybes.
My path is different and life is so different, but as I sit here watching some trashy tv program where people are defining there definition of love and at the moment love is something massively on my mind.
I could have a total new life if I let it, someone new has made it very clear they are falling for me…I don’t understand how this seems to happen to me, but is a moral boost none the less.
But I can’t explain the feelings I have right now, I still only want to marry one girl a girl who is the most beautiful, caring and amazing girl I ever meet. Life gave us an impossible task and the whole experience has been life changing.
Moments I cried, moments she cried moments of sadness but moments of joy, moments of laughter and even more moments of laughter.
I now know the meanings of words I only ever read or sang about before and believe in love, soulmates and best friends too.
I miss Random walk in rain and mud, I miss strolls along the beach, drinks in all sorts of pubs and meals in our favourite restaurants, singing in the car, trips away and the smile on the selfies the amazing cooking and cakes and just the general smile I had as I walked the street proud of someone else.
The roller coaster may have stopped the ride may now be broken but the adventure I took and the moments we shared with live with me forever and no body can ever take them away.
I have been receiving messages from someone trying to make me hate my past and even seek revenge on her, but maybe you can read this and read my words this way as you don’t understand my silence, it’s me saying thank you for your care and I understand, but we don’t live in a black and white world and only one other human being who gets why and that’s all that matters too me.
I don’t care about the drama, I don’t care about the tears, I will never get to hold hands, kiss good night, cuddle, buy a disarano or so much as even lay my eyes on my soulmate ever again in my life…so someone trying cause more trouble, I don’t and I’m sure she doesn’t appreciate.
I am fully aware she is the only one who can contact me, your comments don’t help pointing the obvious is not helping.