I’m feeling really ill and it’s self inflicted. My body really hurts. I’m so lonely too.
I need to say my blogs aren’t to make any feel guilty at all, I’m the guilty one not anyone else.
I’m not controlling or manipulative though at all, I accepted something that should never have been the outcome anyway. But I’m a human being I wanted to try anything to not lose my soulmate I was gonna marry her 12 hours before….again. Surely that’s understandable I waited 8months to tell her I love her.
Now I know everyone is saying I’m x y and z but I’m really not I’m just a guy who’s totally in love with this lass.
We can’t be together but we could been mates, I could have helped her smile and left her spare time busy.
But all a sudden she hates me again, this is her BPD and others telling her how awful I am isn’t fair, no one seen aimee happy like I did Sunday Monday and Tuesday! I just want forgiveness we shouldn’t be like this at all.
I love her that’s my only crime I love her to peace’s