I wanted to blog today to say goodbye to the worst year of my life.
This morning as I said goodbye to another girl, someone who had me smile last few weeks. For all she was lovely she just wasn’t a patch on Aimee.
As Iv just read from her 2017 has been intense, I fell in love with my soulmate we were the couple I dreamed of and I had planned the proposal which means tonight should have been so different. We were the perfect couple people would envy, we were not only in love but each other’s best friend she knew me better then I did and visa versa it was incredible and I loved her so much I wanted to see out the rest of my life with this girl I wanted to have a million adventures an experience a life we deserved and wanted together.
But unfortunately I watched my soulmate try to kill herself everyday she wanted to die physically and mentally she was dying I watched on as her illness made hate me, I can’t describe the feeling of your soulmate hating you. Iv never felt pain like it. She now no longer can stand to even talk to me, but she does every now and then, describe me in a good way.
Just wish she believed that no couple is perfect everyone had bad times but with love you work at them and anorexia well that takes a lot of work, clearly she believes someone else will be worth the work.
Also this year Iv said goodbye to my dad, Iv finally let go this week after he tried beating my brother up, that was enough.
I lost a lot of friends in fighting for Aimee and made my self depressed and suicidal I lost my dignity all in the fight of love.
But as 2017 does end…I finish on a high, I have my s*** well and truly together, I am positive I am confident and I will make 2018 the greatest year of my life. I haven’t made my self who I used to be I made myself a new person and with a new year it’s a whole new ball game.
I love my soulmate and I would do anything to tell her or anything for her. She’s not lost me she never did, anorexia did this not Aimee. I’m here for her/you anytime I always have an always will.
I hope you will read this, your my Aimee I adore you I’m so incredibly proud of you I just wish I could put my arms around you and tell you what you mean to me. Your the love of my life. But as that I have to respect your wishes as this is what you want.
Goodbye 2017 and hello 2018, bring it onn I’m excited 🙂