My relationship is about to end, I sense it I know the signs and I can’t do anything about it.
I’m currently on nights my last ever set of nights, I hate being on nights, I hate being away from home I am so lonely here and my girlfriend is miles away 😦
I’m also jealous of my girlfriends ex, his a good looking guy has a good job and so much more going for him then me, I can’t even make her happy anymore and I feel like I’m losing her bit by bit and her ex reappearing is the final push she may need.
All I ever wanted was to make her happy but I just don’t I make her angry, right now my brain can’t cope with sadness of leaving this job, the sadness of being away from home, the worry of a new job, the worry of my girlfriends happiness and health, the worry I don’t make her happy, the worry I’m gonna lose her and the worry her ex will win her over as he misses her.
All of this and my brain has exploded, Iv literally no where to turn at all, she is my best friend but I can’t turn to her I made her a promise I’d talk to her and I did try but I just caused an argument and now she’s hardly talking to me, she doesn’t wanna see me and won’t return my texts…it’s all got a bit out of hand but I just blew from everything happening in my life I was just after support but she has to much going on atm.
I just know my heart is about to break and my dreams shattered, just hope I cope. Feeling so sad and not at all interested in work 😦
Ending 2018 way I spent the most of it
😦 sad and lonely